Why I am, the way I am.

 

I wish I could tell someone,

The whole story

Of why I am, the way I am.

The tears that come,

In heart not eyes,

Are more than cutting onion.

I will find my way,

Out of all this mess,

Just busy in making a bun.

I will start crying,

And create peace in my heart,

Once I saw any deserving person.

I stand here, gazing out at the world, burdened by a weight I can't seem to shake off. There's a story burning inside me, longing to be shared, but I can't find the right person to share it. It's a tale that holds the key to why I am the way I am, a puzzle formed by the pieces of my past.

Growing up, I felt different. Each day was a struggle, a battle against the monsters that was present within me. They whispered in my ear, filling my mind with doubt and anxiety. I longed for an escape, a home in someone's understanding eyes.
But my voice was silenced, drowned out by the noise of the world. I yearned for someone to listen, to hear my heart's deepest desires and darkest fears. I wished for a compassionate soul who could untie the tangled threads of my existence.

As the years passed, the weight on my shoulders grew heavier, leaving me feeling suffocated. I carried my story within, a secret burden that threatened to eat me.
In moments of solitude, I reflect on the events that shaped me. The battles I've fought, and the scars I've earned along the way. They all play a part in building the person I am today.

So, here I stand, gazing out at the world, ready to embark on a journey of self-discovery. The pages of my story are ready to be written, to be heard, to inspire and heal. I may not know who will be the recipient of my words, but with each step forward, I hope to find the person who will listen, and understand.
For now, I hold on to the hope that someday I will find the courage to share the whole story of why I am the way I am, and in doing so.

I will make all my efforts to do in finding peace of my heart. The traumas I faced, will be removed from my mind, one day and that day I will say, "why I am the way I am," but in a positive way.

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