It's all about the heart,
What your heart feels,
Feels your whole body.
People,
It's not a good life
Or,
A bad life
It's all about the heart.
What your heart feels,
Feels your whole body.

Today when I woke up, it was raining but not outside, in my heart. I don't know why but today my heart was so heavy. Maybe because today I didn't offer my Fajr prayer. It wasn't new to me because it happens to me often. During this feeling different lines also runs in my mind & at that time it was something like,

"Everyone sees the rain of the world, but no one has seen the rain of heart."

Well, I jump from the bed, put my slippers and went to the washroom. I decided to take bath & to dump my yoga session today. During bath, It was like I just wanted to run away from water. I took 5 minutes to take shower & came out. Then I went to select today's outfit. I just picked a simple plain white kameez with a black shalwar & a plain net black scarf. Then I went in front of a mirror open my hair & make a simple braid, a simple & common type of braid. Just a simple foundation  & I put scarf as if to hide my braid. Open up the cupboard to wear some shoes & picked up the sneakers in white color. I filled my bag with 5 books and turned off my mobile and place it on bed table and came out of the room.

Everyone was having breakfast. I sat down and took a glass of a orange juice. Everyone came to know that today she is upset so no one asks me that what happens to me except the queen of the house, 'my mom'.
& as always I replied,
"No I am alright, just an headache."

I asked my brother to come outside when finished & went outside. There were new blooming flowers which makes me a bit happy. They were looking very beautiful & happy...yes happy because they were smiling that makes me smile.

Then we went to university & meet everyone. Thank to God my first class wasn't missed today. My friends got to know that if I am on time today than its because of my mood. I took the class with not that much interest but I noted everything on my copy & the bell rang. Like this next class was also passed. Today I also dumped my cafe session too.
Then I laid down my head on the desk & rest for few minutes & no one asks me that what happened because they all knew. This thing was so so common that everyone knows that on what day my mood will be spoiled. After sometime the prefect of the class came & told that Mam Shakeela is absent. I was so shocked & angry but then I realized that maybe she texted me but I haven't watched my mobile since morning.
Everyone started to ask me that I didn't tell them about her absentee but unfortunately I was also equally shocked. Different kind of questions were revolving in my mind that why is she absent. I decided to go home. I tell my friends & came out. I book rickshaw & tell him the address.

It was about 12.30 o'clock when I reached home. My mom asks me that why I came back home & all. So I told her that today Mam Shakeela was absent so that's why. I asked her to tell brother that I am home. She was eager to ask that how did I came home & all but I went into the room. I took my phone & turned it on & I was going to text her but already 10 missed calls and 5 messages were on the way. I opened them & they were,

  • Sal am,
  • I wish you are fine
  • I am not coming today because I have to go to some family function
  • Please take care of the class
  • & yourself too.

I was relieved & my body fell on the bed & I took a big sigh.


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