Somethings,
are not controlled by us.
& despite that,
We control them.
Just like,
Lucid Dreams.
My eyes got open abruptly, from the dream I was watching. It was a beautiful dream, I guess so. A dream, dreamers watch in this real world. I think it was a Lucid dream, because it was looking like I was controlling it entirely.
I turned on my mobile & it was 3:00 a.m. Almost every night I woke up at this time, but not like this, this much strong desires filled inside me, that I wanted to explore. I tried to fell asleep again but couldn't get my eyes closed because of the movie, I have played & watched in my sleep. I turned on my left & then on my right, went into the washroom, drink some water but no solace & now it was 4:00 a.m.
I decided to woke up & to write it, the dream.
I took out the secret journal from my cupboard, a black leather medium-sized diary named, "Things I wanted to say...", written on its outer cover.
On the first page, a little subtitle as, "..unfortunately I couldn't."
I try to write everything about the 'REAL ME' in it. In short, my small dreamy world. If anyone got a chance to read it, I am finished. The strong, independent girl I tried to show myself in front of everyone will be just smashed in a second & the one get to know that I am just like a black spot in coconut's fleshy middle layer present inside the hard covering of it. I try my best to hide it from everyone, its just I belong to it & it belongs to me.
I open the clean white new page on it & give it a heading in bold italic as: "We are just dreamers trying to survive in the real world."
& started writing as,
I am surprised by the superpower, nature has provided me. I don't know but somehow I get to know the feelings of others towards me. I mean, if he/she is getting bore from me, wanted to talk to me, don't like me, if anyone wanted to really be with me, like me, love me or adore me, I just got to know.
Why? I don't know.
But,
How? I can tell.
So, literally when I enter some room, hall, any place or any gathering, if people make any assumption or think anything about me then automatically a 'call out' type appears on their head, indicating what is going on in his/her mind about me at that moment. I know, I know you won't believe me but it really works like that.
Recently, there was a farewell party at my university. Normally, seniors had nothing to do with juniors & vice versa. So, basically it was the day everyone get a chance to know each other. The whole department was there.
I was wearing a black net Saree with full length blouse and light embroidery, glittering & sparkling, pair of red high heels, red nail polish, smoky-eyed makeup, light red lipstick, holding red & black mixed clutch & open straight hair behind my back.
When I entered the hall, automatically call outs began to appear on some people's head. On some, it faded & on some it appeared. Few gorgeous girls wanted to talk to me, some didn't like my style, some want to sit with me, two boys look towards me as if they don't care who I am but their mind's were saying something different. One of them want me to talk to him first & start the conversation.
While other one was waiting for a moment so that I could settle at a place & he can start.
I went to meet my friends & greet them, I saw a girl sitting in a corner, whose mind was saying 'she wanted to talk to me.' A cute girl wearing white long frock with beautiful makeup & a bun. I excused my friends & went to her. She was beautiful with dusky skin tone but extremely attractive. I greet her & ask her to come join us & she actually did. I spent some minutes with her, exchanged some gossips & actually realized that our vibes matched. Her name was 'Angelina', beautiful like her.
(From here on wards, Lucid Dream started)
Music began & one of the guy, the moody one, began to come towards us. I tried to ignore him but deep down I was equally curious to know what he want or say. While talking to Angelina, I turned around & he was standing right behind us.
Angelina: Oh Hi..
He: Hello.
(while me watching silently both of them)
Angelina: He is my brother.
Me: Oh! That's why he was continuously watching us.
He: No, I was just...
(& I cut him right there)
Me: Oh please, now don't pretend as if you were not interested.
(He just smiles, a cute smile)
& with his smile I woke up, without even asking his name. OMG.
.
.
.
I turned the page & try to draw the party venue so that this dream will always be remembered in my mind.
I closed it, placed it in cupboard & locked it. It was 6:00 a.m. I got up to offer prayer, prepare myself to enjoy the day & was excited to go to university to experience my interaction with that boy after the dream.
Yes, you guessed right...
Thank you!
Stay tuned!
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