Good things are happening...

...I wish i could call you and tell you about them.

Good things are happening,

But unfortunately,

It is very saddening.

I wish

I could call you 

And tell you

About the things that are arriving.

Or

Hate you 

And forget you

For the things I am imagining.

"Everyone is partying hard today. Reason is Me. I don't know anything except the fact that I miss You. You know what, good things are happening, I wish I could call You and tell You about them. You were the one eagerly waiting for this day to come and now here it is, but now You are not here, with me.

Everyone is celebrating as my first book is published today. I am happy too, as I was the second desperete one for this day, the first was You. When I needed everyone's trust and wait and loyalty but in return I only got anxieties, depression and insults. Now here I am celebrating it with those same unworthy people. Can You feel that, how sad it is to enjoy your one of the big days, without the one you really wanted to be with. Everything good happened to me when You were with me. After You, this is the day, that is only for me but now You are not here to see. I wish I could call You and tell You, but unfortunately.

Do You still remember the day, when we were sitting and thinking about the title of my book and You said, "It should be extra thoughtful, so that when people listen to the title of the book, they should awe-stuck and desprete to read it."

I did the exact thing. I gave my book the title, "Did I paint your bluest skies, the darkest grey?"

Do You what it this book about. No I won't tell you. It's a secret. You know what I was very very nervous about this day, but now I am alright. All I needed was You to talk to. I still remember the day when You left me alone in this world full of materialistic people and things. I cannot forget that day and forgive You for that. But I also can't Even today I was only there sitting on a couch, staring at You, through my mobile phone screen. You know what, people call me mad and I think I am. I cannot explain how much I miss You. I also cannot explain my feelings to anyone. I play happy card and people think I am really happy. You were the one I was comfortable with in sharing my every single feeling.

Today when I woke up, it was not You on my mind and this thing is irritating me alot. Today it was the work I have to do for the function. I don't want to forget You or remove You from my mind, memories and heart, ever.

Can You just speak to me? Can I just call You and ask You about the things, that are irritating me alot? Can I just expect that You will pick up my call and say 'Don't worry, everything will be fine', like You used to say whenever I was sad? The answer for each and every question is unfortunately, a big 'NO'. You know what, Good things are happening I wish I could call You and tell You about them. I wish I could call You, at least, at once."

This is the whole thing I repeatedly do, whenever I feel lonely in a world full of people, but not even a single one there for me. It is very funny to tell You that my close one, is only this 'Grave' in a world of numerous and uncountable people. I feel like it listens to me, the person inside it hears everything that I say, but ofcourse couldn't reply. All hopes end up here and I gather myself to leave and to come again, to tell You what next happens to me.

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