..I wanted to write
I have always wanted
to write a poem
about the way you make me feel.
With you present by my side,
all days and nights
till I see you
And wanted myself to heal.
One day while browsing through the pages of my favorite poetry book, I stumbled upon a poem that spoke to me in ways no other poem had before. It was as if the words were carefully chosen just for me, describing my innermost thoughts and feelings with such clarity that I could not help but feel as if the poem had been written specifically for me. It was a poem on him, and how he was the exact poem I wanted to write.
He, the one in my dreams and thoughts, was now immortalized in this poem's lines. I always saw that person in my dreams whom I loved so desperetley without even knowing who he was. He love me the way I needed to be loved, without any expectations or conditions.
Well, the first line of the poem says,
"You know how I have always wanted to write a poem about the way you make me feel."
As I read on, the words continued to paint a picture of my deepest desires and longings.
The second line,
"With you present by my side, all days and nights till I see you and wanted myself to heal,"
perfectly captured how time seems to stand still whenever I think of him, and how everything else fades away into the background. I always wanted to have a person who love me with such intensity that it feels like we exist in a world of our own desires. I always dreamt of a place where he & I could go, a place where we could be free to love each other with reckless abandon, without any fear or judgment. And then came the line that struck a chord within me like no other:
"I love the night that shows me the pictute of yours."
This particular line from the poem highlighted how my dreams were the only place where I could be with him and experience true happiness.
Years had gone by with this dream of mine until the day I finally gave in and decided to write my own poem about him. It was scary to put my feelings into words, but I wanted to write the perfect poem - one that would capture everything I felt whenever I thought of him.
However, as I sat with pen and paper in hand, I found myself struggling to articulate everything that was inside me. Then I realized that maybe the perfection I was looking for could never be found through written words. Instead, it was enough to know that he was the exact poem I wanted to write.
And even though that poem may never exist on paper, the feelings and emotions I have for him will always be immortalized in my heart.
I wanted to have him in this life with me, holding his hand in mine and feeling his warm embrace whenever I needed it the most. But even though I couldn't have everything I wanted with him in this physical world, the poem he inspired within me will always be a source of comfort.
The next line says,
"And the way you look into my eyes is the only thing I need to see."
Whenever I woke up with his dreams in my mind, I always woke up with a smile on my face. I want a kind of love so deep that even if there existence is limited to my dreams and thoughts, it still holds the power to make each day brighter and more meaningful.
I dreamt about this type of love throughout my life__a 3a.m. coffee type of love, a dancing in rain type of love, holding hands and walking on the road at night type of love.
And even though reality may not always allow for these fantasies to come true, I will always love me dreams in which you were present with me.
I imaginate my love for a guy who may not be physically present in my life but is always with me in my spirit. In the end, what matters most is not whether we can write the perfect poem or live out our wildest fantasies. All that matters is the feelings in one's heart.
Whenever I look to the other side,
Your eyes should follow my eyes
You, the only one,
Who knows what I think
& what I was going to speak.
I will love you forever,
even if you will stay bound to my dreams.
Stay Tuned!
Thankyou!
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