...tall boys with cute laughs, deep voices & messy hair.
"How quickly Glitter spray dries,
Like that, I thought my feelings for you will also dies,
But damn, my heart always lies,
And I still get those stupid butterflies."
I was 23&, he was 25...
The feeling I got, whenever I saw him. He was so handsome. Many a times, I decided to not look at him but my eyes only find him. Automatically, my gaze follow him wherever he went. Those stupid butterflies, I get, whenever I saw him, even I don't want them.
This wasn't love at first sight, wasn't even love I guess, because I didn't like him when I first saw him. I actually hate his attitude. But I forgot at that time that attitude attracts me, always. I don't know when was that moment, I felt myself so close to him. I don't think he even liked me. He looked towards me, rolled his eyes back & just turned in another direction. This attitude of him just caught my heart, I guess.
I know him on social media too, same posts as he looks here, full of attitude & handsome. Sometimes, I think he do liked me but then I think, if he does then why didn't he even text me on any social media website, because I was everywhere available with my own name & pictures. Maybe, he was stalking me as was stalking him.
Our meetings:
1. I was having my lunch in university's cafe with my friends & he came with his gang, wearing black shirt with first two three buttons open & blue jeans, Nike sneakers & a chain with a pirate around his neck, his dark brown hair & standing with gel beautifully. He talked to everyone, including my friends, except me & I hate it.
God..his smile..!
I was wearing a blue long shirt, long enough to my toe with black flowers everywhere on it, a black tights, half hair bun, back high heels & a chain with letter 'A' around my neck.
Well, he came to sit table next to ours. His attitude is like, he just want everyone's attention. I think this was reason he didn't talked to me because I didn't start the conversation with him. But his eyes on me, says something else.
2. Next, in class during lectures. I can feel his gaze on me whenever professor turn back to write something on the white board. Those butterflies in my stomach, whenever he look at me, I cannot explain.
3. In the ground, after lectures, as if he is following me. Wherever & whenever I go, he is there. That irritation, once felt with him, now it was changed into likeness. I began to like his attitude-filled looks, his moves & observance on me.
I don't know, it was likeness or what, but I began to saw him in my dreams. I was a girl who believe in dreams more than reality & as if dreams were showing the reality that I was missing really in real.
4. Once I was going for shopping & I saw him but he hadn't saw me, I guess.
So, everything was increased in just one year.
5. Once, lecture was over, everyone left the class, one of the classmate came to me for some help regarding notes, his pen fell close to my feet, he bent & sit on one leg to pick that pen. Suddenly, that handsome entered the room, he saw the classmate in that "proposing someone" position & left the class. The stupid butterflies were increasing more & more.
After that day, he tried to ignore me. When I didn't got that attention from him, his gaze on me that I also thought that this all was just my assumption & I tried to lose interest in him & I won for sometime. But that stupid butterflies never flew away from my stomach.
Then, I saw him proposing a random girl, I watched him dancing with girls, sitting with girls, talking & touching other girls.
I thought that maybe at any point of time those butterflies would be eaten by some frog. But it never happened & I still get those stupid butterflies.
Thank you!
Stay Tuned!
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